May 2008
1 post
please please PLEASE work out. PLEASE.
April 2008
1 post
the last time i cried so much was when we broke up. i really really do love my parents.
January 2008
3 posts
i have no idea about anything anymore sometimes it seems like i’m a 100% sure, and the next moment, my heart decides to interfere it’s not that there haven’t been happy things happening in my life, it’s just i suppose aren’t things that are interesting
i was on the bus today, when the bus driver suddenly ran off the bus during the red light. an old lady had fallen down at the steps outside. i’m ashamed to say that i didn’t think of going to help because it didn’t occur to me that the bus driver had to come back to drive the bus o_O not that that is a proper excuse but i’m glad to say that someone else had the brains and...
i think i have secured a job… will update when my life gets on track
December 2007
8 posts
just want to say, thank you mink and mable for being my friends :) will update in time to come
i think it’s amazing the way people can write songs that you can relate to a 100%, just a few words and it sums up everything i feel, puts everything in perspective, a song that understands myself better than i understand myself - i have just found that song
happy birthday
this post is dedicated to the minions, an individualised message to every one of you :) which i will update whenever i feel like :p alf shawn lyn sharleen jina janessa cheng kartik benson eugene marie yh moni kway ray sne peipei roy dt huiling emm kz bella clar eunice sindhu and of course, miss ng
so prom’s over. i am terribly un-photogenic i wished everyone who has photos of me can just send them to me instead of posting them up on facebook! so emm if you’re reading this, please do not upload them onto facebook and thank you very much for staying over at the hotel with me :) prom wasn’t perfect but it was nice overall. much love goes out to the minions :) and mable, mink...
and because both jas and mable dedicated an entry to me, i love you both very much too, really :) 6 years and counting my friends :) on another note, prom’s tomorrow and my complexion’s only getting worse bleargh. but i am pleased with my hair though :) the healthy lifestyle will start soon, as soon as i get through tomorrow, yes yes i will :)
no. 4 still applies. to me as well, both metaphorically and literally. :):):) because three is the magic number, it will remain that way
mood: ambivalent, definitely ambivalent 24/7
November 2007
18 posts
i think it’s time for a happy post. there seems to be a lack of it in my blog, i suppose it’s due to the many layers of sadness as opposed to the single shade of happiness. anyway tonight was a fantastic night to take a walk in, the wind was brilliant. and today was a ‘siblings’ day, spent with my brother and sister, something i haven’t done for really quite a while....
That’s How You Know Giselle: How does she know you love her? How does she know she’s yours? Man: How does she know that you love her? Giselle: How do you show her you love her? Both: How does she know that you really, really, truly love her? How does she know that you love her? How do you show her you love her? How does she know that you really, really, truly love her? Giselle:...
so it’s officially the end. the last stop, prom. and i still have to make decision(s)
i think i think… i’m almost there :(
i had a nightmare last night. about math o_O i couldn’t do my A level paper and it was already four oclock and i was only at question 5. oh gragh. what a stupid nightmare. i haven’t been sleeping throughout the night these few days. this is not good.
More than Words Saying I love you Is not the words I want to hear from you It’s not that I want you Not to say, but if you only knew How easy it would be to show me how you feel More than words is all you have to do to make it real Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me Cos I’d already know What would you do if my heart was torn in two More than words to show you feel That your...
i would like to go to the beach and watch the sunrise after prom
oh and i was watching extreme makeover: home edition that day and it made me cry. and there was a really really pretty room for the little baby boy and i have decided that i would like to have a ceiling like that if i can for my own room next time. it is gorgeous :)
this is in a separate post simply because i feel like it. i do like christmas. i hope it snows in china i would like to have a white winterland for once and i would like to get away from singapore and certain stuff for a while so please snow. oh and the lights at orchard this year are pretty, really pretty :) it made the walk to ps feel like nothing i think i could walk along the streets forever...
i had a nightmare yesterday. it wasn’t a scary one per se, but it was frightening one. a really frightening one because it seemed to have brought out all my fears and dislikes. even chem. -_- and i had another nightmare last night. apparently our lit paper was in the morning, and it was only the night before at about 12 plus that i realised i haven’t touched faustus because i had...
IT’S OVERRRRR i say and it’s real i say stubbornly. haha. anyway please let me find a perfect prom dress i say bimbotically haha. because because i don’t know i don’t want to settle for second-best and i’m a perfectionist. and because i’m superficial like that. anyway i have forgetten what i wanted to blog about and hence am typing rubbish hoping that if i stay...
‘it’s the closest thing we have to magic’
i miss… those days. those days where I/you/we _________________ on an entirely separate note, TWO more days. lit is not counted i say delusionally. :)
i will be happy satisfied if i get A A A B B. yes i will. THREE MORE DAYS! THREE MORE! FREEDOM IS AT HAND!
sunday, monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday. five more days. JUST FIVE. please hold on. and oh, tumblr now has the function of making your entries private :)
为什么 为什么 为什么 i wish i wish i wish
well that’s done and over with, no more math for the rest of my life i should think. somehow that didn’t make me as happy as i thought i would be, but anyhow i’m pretty sure i won’t miss doing math, except for the fact that it’s the only subject that allows me to listen to music while studying at the same time. now, my problem is how do i find the right quotes and...
说你爱我 下着雨 i 让尘气稀释回忆 think 我靠着你不出声音 i know 看着你 what 看着斑驳的甜蜜 was...
October 2007
12 posts
tomorrow’s the day! i’m rather excited?/nerve-wracked? because i want it to be over. so i should concentrate and not think about those stuff. yes i should. yes i will. and yes i can and i will ace my As.
you have enough time and you’re smart enough. now stop stressing and go take a break.
- Strike out anything that doesn’t apply to you. - Bold the five-ten that best apply to you. FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt....
moodswingy moodswingy moodswingy. wrong time wrong time wrong time. brain refuses to co-operate. have spent the whole day doing nothing productive. GRAGH. but honing my piano skills and taking a nice long bath is productive isn’t it. at least emotionally it is. therapautic things i need. i think i need to spend more time around people so i won’t have time to think and just study. so...
HUNGRY. WANT MAGIC BROWNIE.
equilibrium is good, because as we learnt in econs, it makes people happy. both internal equilibrium and external equilibrium three scenarios happen when you’re sitting on a see-saw. one, you’re the heavier one and always remain at the bottom two, you’re the lighter one and always remain at the top three, you’re the same weight as the other party and you achieve tada,...
don’t know why but this song suddenly popped up in my head and have been running on repeat ever since ‘I just called to say I love you I just called to say how much I care I just called to say I love you And I mean it from the bottom of my heart’ in...
sometimes i amaze myself at what i can do most times, i amaze myself at what i can’t
i don’t doubt my feelings but i doubt yours but i doubt yours not because i doubt you but because i doubt myself i thought i was over it i think i have been moodswingy nowadays might be the stress, might be the worrying and inaction which of course can be solved simply by working
last day of official school i suppose this is the time for an emo entry where i write something to everyone in class but i’m not up to that now i will miss school though and all the friends and even all the mundane things we do and of course the friends and all the love and laughter minions! you all have no idea how incredibly thankful i am that i’m in 1A. JC might have been hell...
so strange but i really want the monks to win haha felt such a strong sense of unjust for them when i watched the news this morning go pongyis go :) in other news, i think i have been rather good girl and studying math AND econs, albeit slowly. and yay, nice dinner tmr :):):)
September 2007
21 posts
i’m so sick and tired of being in rj. so sick and tired of studying. and so SICK AND TIRED of hearing that ‘talent is talent, and grades and grades’, and so sick and tired of falling short of even the grades and so SICK AND TIRED of feeling inadequate all the time. there can be no elevation without suppression. GRAGH. i’m feeling an irrational burst of anger towards...
my face is peeling really badly for i don’t know what reason, and i have many ugly pimples which i wish would disappear, and both the shampoo and body soap i like have run out and i don’t like the ones i’m using now, and my results suck, BUT i’m alive, and i guess that counts for something. hurhur. what a depressing entry. but...
You Should Play the Harp You are a sensitive soul, with a great admiration for beauty. You definitely have what it takes to make beautiful music, but most instruments are too harsh for you. You are subtle, shy, and even a bit spoiled. You’re very picky about most aspects of your life. It’s just your style to play an eccentric, hard to...
GRAGH. my long post disappeared. GRAGH.
i think it’s strange how sometimes the random little things people say get stuck in your head as opposed to things which actually mattered and still matter to you don’t why? maybe those little sayings made an impact on your life, just that you don’t know it - or at least, i would like to think so if not, i would rather they move out and make space for things that actually matter...
it’s times like these, when i read blogs of people whom i know enjoying their lives overseas, that i really really really really really want to study overseas but then i think more carefully and realised that i really don’t think i’m cut out for it and i decide, i would rather have been born there instead in a place where there are rolling countrysides with crisscrossed lanes...
because everyone else is still having prelims, it will be just me, my bed, my computer, and my books these few days :) am looking forward to spending my entire day in bed, snug and cosy reading, something i haven’t done in a loooonnngggg time :) and check this out! http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/asia-pacific/7002732.stm and http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/middle_east/7003294.stm oh and whoever...